Hey all...

Sorry I've been very bad in keeping this blog.

To make up for it, here's the scoop:

I'm in my final year of high school, so I'm applying to every college, university and institution that I think and hope with all my heart will take me. Because of this, everyday I receive e-mail after e-mail of ad, open house, and registration date underneath the west coast sun.

My family is slowly but surely getting older. My mother and father continue to hope and strive for a better future for me, and although I appreciate it a lot, I am not sure that it is helping in my stress level.

To further condole my stress, I am in 3 major sciences at school (Chemistry, Biology and Physics) to get in and I'm taking a two block AP Calculus course for the credits. Not to mention I'm taking Law, and have a test almost every 2 to 3 days. Not to mention that I'm taking English online so I could make room for those sciences and still have room for an elective so that I could keep my stress as low as possible.

Not that it's really helping.

I joined Yearbook for my final year. Great. It's fun and stressful, because it requires a bunch of my after school time dedicated to learning programs like Adobe Illustrator and Adobe Photoshop CS.

And as always there is the problem of money, and the fight for a job. Even though I know that it would more than likely help the family's situation, my parents continue to insist on me not working. Even though more often than not I hear them arguing over the phone with a Bank representative.

Anyway, let's not worry about that. Although.. it does continue to come up because of the constant fees I must pay for all the so called "benefits" that seniors get. Like Prom, and class rings, and trips and pictures and retreats. The ridiculous never ends. I could actually and honestly live without all of these, especially Prom, and yet the whole world insists that I try to enjoy them, for the "experience" that is senior year.

Let's get this straight, I don't need it, don't want it, and sometimes don't deserve it. And to be honest, I don't like it. I truly feel like I'm being forced to have all of these things. If I want them, damn it, I'll ask!

Sorry, but it really does bother me.

Ugh, I have so much more to say, but I don't know how to put it into words... not to mention, I am too freaking tired to care.

Stay Classy,

CreepyNerdNextDoor

A Fan's Reprise: Twilight

During this wonderful summer I was looking through the mess that I call my bedroom and stumbled upon something that all of us can love and relate to: books.

From Harry Potter to Pride and Prejudice, I looked at those books and thought about how much fun it would be to go through all those adventures with some of my favourite people again.

Until I stumbled upon one book that is a guilty part of my reading conscience.

Twilight.

Having read it in the 8th grade all I can say is, with the capacity I had to analyze writing back then, the only character that I found partially redeemable in that series was Jacob Black.

I decided to read the first few chapters of the book just for old times sake, and found that I couldn't do it anymore. Seeing as my taste in novels has matured and flourished into something more (uh, how should I put it...) intelligent, I couldn't stomach the simplistic vocabulary or the extremely underdeveloped characters.

It was through this, that I got an idea.

I am going to write my own version of the Twilight series. I want to do this as a summer project, to a) force myself to keep writing and b) so I won't lose what little brain cells I have left from the sun. I figured, it might be interesting to turn this sorry excuse for a novel and turn it into something sarcastic, witty and potentially good. For that I am going to need your help.

I would like you to write a few things you've found if/when you have read these books, from the first to the fourth and final installment. Anything, in my ask or in my submission box, things that you think the characters should be and how they should change, from personality to story line, anything. I will take and consider all of them as I write. Also, I need people to tell me in earnest what they thought when they first read the book.

Now, I still need to keep this in the "Twilight" category, so some things will not change:

1. The physical appearances of the characters will not change.
2. The physical traits that have been associated with the mythical creatures will not change to be accurate according to Real World Mythology.
3. The major chronological events in the original plot line will not change. However, how the events will be triggered can (and will be) changed.

That being said, I need a few more things from you. Since it has been so long since I actually read the series, I don't remember the major events that happened in the story. That, and the only book I actually own of these series is the first one. I need help with references and time lines, as well as supposed history that the story itself is supposed to imply. So references, quotes, history, websites, anything you can provide will be wonderful.

I want to turn this series on its head as a project I can be proud of. If we do this together, I know we'll all be proud of the outcome.

Let's have fun doing this!

Exams are here....

And I'm not very happy about it. I've just written my Calculus 12 exam and to be frank, I don't think I did very well on it.

I messed up so many questions worth more than 2 marks that if I fail, I will have to buy a 1994 Caravan and move away and become a hippie in South Hollywood and try to sell hipster trinkets and doodads.

My head still hurts from the amount of effort I used to come up with answers for some of those things. I'm normally a number person, but holy crap, the numbers basically just told me to fuck off.

Wow, my head hurts, I need to be comforted. I'll buy some ice cream for myself later.

So, I haven't been drawing, I haven't been writing and I haven't been reading.

I have become an unproductive pile of schlubb... seriously, I haven't gotten around to finish anything. Curse me and my procrastination!

It's all well and good, I am going to get a job and start on my English 12 course this summer. I can't wait to get that over and done with, but seriously, I think next year I'm going to take the Math 12 Provincial, since I decided not to take it this year. Woot. Hooray for me, more shit to worry about.

To be honest, a lot of this year I have slowly been losing myself, and I don't know why. I used to hate getting anything under an 80%, but now I can't seem to get myself off of my ass and work on things. I lost something... where did it go?

The worst that could happen is I'll be disowned from the family... but I do still intend on moving away to become a gypsy or whatever the hell I said I was going to do earlier.

Yeah, then who'll be laughing? Well, not me, I'll be living in a fucking Caravan.

I always have the imagination for becoming a better version of myself, I just don't have the motivation. Maybe it's from lack of support, because, to be quote blunt, my parents were never really supportive, all the did was pressure, and I never really felt any freedom to try things on my own, just the constant pound of trying to be something for them to be proud of, not something that I could live with.

Maybe that's it, and my motivation just finally decided to high-tail itself out of my house and run away to someone else more deserving.

An incorrigible way of putting it, right?

Sorry for being so depressing. I am still crazy, but generally today I felt the need to reflect on what I've been doing, so maybe I can kick myself to change it.

CreepyNerdNextDoor